I only have a few goals for 2016 but I wanted to share them here as motivation to complete them. Time seems to fly by so quickly and as I’m going into my last six months as a teenager, I hope I can make this year one of the best yet.

-pass my driving test
-start college
-go on holiday (hopefully to Disneyland)
-eat healthier and exercise regularly
-spend more time with friends
-increase my sessions helping at the nursery and continue at the shop
-do more ‘tourist’ things around London
-be more independent
-get discharged from mental health services
-write more



I can’t believe that we are approaching the end of 2015 and I’m writing this list again! This year has been challenging but I’ve completed a lot and I’m very proud of myself. Also, this isn’t about boasting about what I have or haven’t done or anything like that- this is for me to look at and see how far I have come each year. So here it is, the things I have achieved in 2015:

-started volunteering in a local charity shop twice a week

-began driving lessons!

-started an online college course

-attended an open day and applied for actual college

-attended college support interview where I disclosed my mental health issues

-started my placement at a nursery

-stopped taking anti psychotics and mood stabilisers after 2+ years on then!! (obviously gradually/under my doctors supervision and because I was ready!)

-went to a barbecue my mental health team held for the staff and patients. This was probably one the hardest things for me to do and although I only stayed for 20 minutes, I went!

-used public transport with family, friends, and alone!

-when the charity shop I was volunteering at closed, I went into another shop alone and asked if they needed volunteers (they did!) and I started the next week. I’ve been there twice a week for 4 months now and I love it and the people

-travelled up North alone again. 15/16 Molly did this all the time but it’s a big deal for 19 year old me

-passed my theory test!

-met up with/travelled to see friends

-completed safeguarding training at the nursery

-celebrated (for me that means a meal, still no no to parties) my birthday with friends for the first time in years

-saw Taylor Swift live at Hyde Park (r.i.p me)

-accepted my weight gain. I’d still like to improve my fitness in 2016 but it’s not about being thin anymore

-travelled to Leicester to visit my friend for the day

These are the main things I have achieved this year and although it’s not the longest list, I’m very happy with how things have been! I hope that next year the list will be even longer! I plan to make a ‘goals for 2016’ post later in December or early January as I never got round to that this year. Merry Christmas 🙂

College ‘update’

Getting back into education is proving to be harder than I thought. I applied to start a childcare course in September 2016 and as I disclosed my mental illness on the application, I had a interview with the support department. The lady was really understanding and I felt very positive going forward, I didn’t feel like there was any judgment that I had been out of school for so long or about my illness.
The only thing that has been worrying me is a requirement of the course I’ve applied for. As I’m 19 and will be 20 in June, I’m too old for the 16-19 year old courses that most people go straight into from school. There is only one childcare course for adults (the one I’ve applied for) at this college but you have to be already be employed at a nursery. And I’m not. I volunteer at a nursery but obviously that’s very different to actually working somewhere.
Today I received a call from someone at the college, telling me that as I’m not in employment I don’t fit the requirements for the course. I thought, ok, that’s fair enough. He made a note on my file that they would contact me again in June and if my situation has changed (basically if I’ve started working in a nursery) they will put me down for the course interview. He then went on to ask me why I had a time out card on my file. (When I went to the support interview, one of the things the lady said might help is having a time out card that I could show in a lesson if I needed a break or needed to leave. I agreed, knowing that I probably wouldn’t need it, but it’s nice to know that I would have the option.) he said that if I needed to leave a lesson, what would I do if I needed to leave whilst working at a nursery. I left like he was implying ‘you aren’t ready for the work or the responsibility’ and that’s made me feel like shit.
I’ve decided to start looking into other colleges and courses in the New Year because with Christmas coming up I don’t want to be stressed out! I want to enjoy this time of year with my family.