It’s only a month into the year and I have already achieved (or am on my way to achieving) majority of my goals. I thought I’d post a little update. 

1. I have been discharged from mental health services! It’s been almost 4 years since this whole journey started and I’m so happy to put an end to that chapter. I’ll never forget it but I’m happy that it’s behind me.

2. I am booking my first proper holiday in 2 weeks! E and I are going to Iceland in October! I cannot wait. 

3. I started a new job in December so before I even posted the goals the goal was achieved! 

4. I’ve met a ton of new people at my new job and am loving it! 

5. I have lost a stone since starting my new job. It’s extremely active which means I have lost weight without actively trying (and also improving my fitness at the same time). 

All that is left is a car! Which I am in the process of looking into. I just need to compare prices as there are a few options. When I’ve got my car, I might make some new goals as I’ll still have a decent amount of 2017 left. 


Goals for 2017

I can’t believe that it’s already time to write this post. I feel like I say this every year now but 2016 has flown by in the blink of an eye. It’s been an eventful year (I got my first job, passed my driving test) but I’m looking forward to wiping the slate clean in 2017. 

So here we go. I don’t have a lot of goals for 2017 but the first couple are quiet significant..

-get my first car

-start a new job

-get discharged from MH services (due to happen in January)

-go on holiday (my best friend + I are planning to go to Iceland!)

-branch out and meet new people

-improve my fitness and continue to eat healthily

30 things to do before I’m 30

1. Go to Iceland

2. Hot air balloon

3. Open cinema 

4. Learn to play guitar

5. Spend Christmas or New Year in New York

6. Go ape

7. Write a book, published or unpublished

8. Go skiing or snowboarding

9. Run a marathon

10. Get a tattoo

11. Safari

12. Feed/meet giraffes 

13. Go to a festival 

14. La tomatina

15. Go camping

16. Throw a dart at a map and travel there

17. Skydive

18. Go to Maine

19. Fall in love

20. Universal, Harry Potter world, Disneyland Paris

21. See the Northern lights 

22. Move out

23. Do a zip wire 

24. Harry Potter themed party

25. Take my mum on a trip abroad

26. Eat vegan for a month

27. Volunteer

28. Spend a weekend in central London and truly explore it

29. Road trip around the country

30. Visit Italy

Goals for 2016. 

My goals for 2016 were relatively simple but I’m still going to ‘review’ them as we approach the end of the year. I can’t believe how quickly this year has gone by (I feel like I say that every year, but seriously, where’s does the time go?). So here goes.
-my first goal was to pass my driving test. I’m happy to say that I took my test in June after 7 months of learning and I passed first time! I was extremely anxious but so relieved. I got 7 minors which I was happy with. Now saving for my first car!

-starting college didn’t work out. I attended two interviews, the first being the support interview (that was actually last year) where I discussed my health problems and that went really well. I then turned up to my ‘proper’ interview only to be told that I’m too old for the course. They were actually quite rude and told me I needed to make sure I was well enough and would be able to cope with college. I’ve gotten over it though and I’m happy it didn’t work out as other things have happened because of that. Doesn’t excuse them basically discriminating against me though. 

-I didn’t get to go on holiday but I did spend a lot of time up North with my family which was nice. I’m hoping to either go to France or Iceland next year, so we’ll see.

-I can’t say I’ve undergone a massive healthy transformation but I have made positive diet changes. I’m eating healthier and have seen results because of that. I never want to get back into a disordered way of eating/thinking so I allow myself to eat everything in moderation. 

-another goal was to spend more time with friends. I’ve seen a lot more of my friends this year and that’s been great. Love them.

-I also wanted to increase my sessions helping at the nursery and continue at the shop. I carried on volunteering at the nursery and charity shop until June. The shop, unfortunately, closed down and the sessions I helped with at the nursery finished for the summer. 

-I’ve done a lot of tourist things this year. I’ve been to most of the museums, my sister and I did the Harry Potter studio tour which was amazing and I’ve really enjoyed seeing more of London. It’s strange that I’ve lived here all my life and haven’t taken the time to really see London through a visitors eyes.

-be more independent. I’m definitely a lot more independent. I work now so I have my own money and I obviously choose my shifts which has been good for my independence. 

-get discharged from mental health services… this was a huge goal for me. I was admitted to hospital in June 2013 for 10 months and have been with mental health services since. Over that time, I’ve had dips but have been fairly steady and I just want to be done with mental health services. And it’s happening.. I’m getting discharged in January! I could have been discharged in December but as Christmas can be a stressful period we decided January was best. I can’t wait! (I know some people are with MH teams for years and even for their whole lives, I’m not saying that’s a bad thing but I don’t need to be anymore and this is a huge achievement for me)

-write more. I’ve written more than I previously have (both on my blog and off) but I would ideally like to write more. I enjoy it and I find it therapeutic. 
So that’s that! All in all, this years been a good one. I’m hopeful that 2017 will be even better and I’ll definitely be posting my goals for next year soon.


We are well into 2015 and I still haven’t written out my goals for this year which is something I promised myself that I’d do. I find it difficult to ‘commit’ to things, I guess that should be a goal? To see things through until the end? Or at least give things a fair try.. so here we go.

-See things through until the end.

-I want to leave the UK whether it be for a day trip or a weekend. Preferably via airplane. I’ve only flown twice in my life and I was 4 at the time. My mum took my siblings and I to Finland where we met Santa which I remember nothing of, haha! So flying is something that I’m keen to experience.

-Start driving lessons. Very self explanatory.

-Read 50 books. It sounds like a lot but reading is my one passion so I think I’ll probably surpass 50.

-Keep a daily diary. I have a ‘5 year diary’ which allows you six lines per day so this has, so far, been easy to stick to.

-Start a college course. This is one of the more difficult ones. I doubt I’ll be going to ‘proper’ college anytime soon so it’ll most likely be something online. For now.

-Start volunteering. Another hard one. I’ve wanted to do voluntary work for a longtime but when you feel like you’re on the brink of a panic attack majority of the time, it’s kinda difficult.

-Redecorate my bedroom. Fresh start and all that.

-Stay up North for a month.

-Eat vegan for a month. I’m a vegetarian, born and raised, and I’m interested in seeing how I feel within myself after eating vegan. I don’t think I’ll ever make the permanent change but you never know!

-Make more of an effort to stay in contact with friends. I struggle with this because none of my friends live anywhere near me which means us meeting up takes a lot of planning and travelling which, again, is hard when you have severe anxiety.

-Learn to love myself.

These are the things I really want to achieve, and focus on, this year. I know that there aren’t a lot but oh well, they’re my goals and I don’t want to set myself up for failure with a list as long as the alphabet! I do want to try and post here more because it gives me a little sense of achievement and it’s great to have things like this documented, so that’s another unofficial goal- write more. We’ll see how that one goes haha. I hope that if you’re reading this you are having a wonderful 2015 and if you aren’t, don’t worry, you’ve got 10 more months to turn it around! 🙂


2013/14 were without a doubt the hardest, most painful years of my life but with 2015 only a few hours away, I wanted to focus on some of the positive moments from this year! So here we have..

Things I’ve achieved in 2014:

-I accepted that I’m ill and decided to give recovery a chance, which led to..

-..getting discharged from inpatient after 10 months!

-turned 18

-continued with medication

-joined the gym

-was a bridesmaid at my cousin’s wedding

-and wore my dress all day

-stayed at a hotel for the first time!

-stayed out of hospital (minus one blip)

-travelling on train/tube at first with company, then alone!

-eating, within reason, when my body needs to

-wasn’t as reckless with money

-realised that I can’t let other people’s negative emotions/opinions control mine

-got Taylor Swift tour tickets for June 2015(!!!)

-went to my CFS clinic appointment alone for the first time

-met up, multiple times, with friends

-learnt to say ‘no’

-allowed my mum to continue to have complete control over my medication

-got the tube home after an anxiety attack

-cut ties with people found triggering/unhelpful

-met the giraffe I adopted!

-had multiple emotional conversations with different family members, which were difficult but beneficial

-kept up with my regular appointments

-started seeing a recovery, this was a big deal because it meant adding someone new to my care team after such a long time

-made it through Christmas without engaging in negative behaviours

-I’ve finally put the phrase ‘choose your battles’ into motion

-accepted the loss of old friendships

-saw distant family members for the first time with them actually knowing about my illness

This was a difficult list to make because it’s extremely difficult for me (and most people!) to acknowledge my own accomplishments but I think it’s something everyone should start to do more of! So those are the things I feel I have achieved this year. I’m going into 2015 with a completely different outlook on life and hopefully this year will top all of my previous years! I’m most likely going to do a post in January where I set myself some goals for 2015.

With all that said, I hope, whatever you are doing, you bring the new year in with a smile. See you in 2015!